I'm usually a pretty private person. Yes I have a blog and I blog about my life but I never blog about anything very personal....Today that changes. Lately I'm so confused about my life and where it's leading. I ask myself the same questions daily. I drive myself crazy most of the time with these thoughts in my head. Do I want to go back to school & if so how should I pay for it? Should I get a part time job just to be able to pay off my car sooner & then be able to afford school? Am I truly happy with my job or where do I want to be in 10 years? Why can't I be doing what I really want to be doing in life? Why won't anyone help us refinance our house & help us get into a better loan so eventually SOMEDAY we can put it up for sale and buy something else? Does it pay to go out of my way for people...even strangers I don't know? I really am a positive person but everybody is allowed to have bad days right???
I have the same routine everyday. It's starting to wear on me. I have so many other things on my mind that I keep to myself but these are just a few of the thoughts I have on a daily basis. I reflect on my past way to much & I need to get past that I guess....I've always had a hard time with things I "should have done" back when I had the chance. Really I sound like I'm just griping and I know that I have a wonderful life but I guess I'm going through a phase. Soooo I found this blog from one of my friends blogs. {Yes I'm a blog stalker somedays} Anyway, the idea is to write a letter a day to each of the following below. You can post it on your blog or just write it on your own time. Maybe I will post my letters. Maybe I won't. Who knows...Maybe tomorrow I will think this is a horrible idea. I do change my mind on a daily basis. But for now I will post this and hope that others think this might be a good idea or might help them in some way.
1. A stranger
2. Your spouse, or your future spouse - even if you've never met them
3. Your child(ren) or future child
4. Your first love or crush
5. One to each of your parents
6. Someone in your life who has caused a lot of pain during your childhood
7. Your sibling(s)
8. Someone you've hurt
9. Someone you don't understand
10. Someone deceased
11. The person you'd want to take care of your children if you & your spouse are no longer alive
12. Your best girlfriend
13. Your dreams
14. Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like
15. Your 13-year-old self
16. The person you miss the most
17. Someone you know who's going through the worst of times
18. Someone that caused someone you love (not you) a lot of pain when they were a child
19. Someone that changed your life
20. Your reflection in the mirror
Happy writing!
3 comments:
Sorry you're going through a rut :( you're not alone; pretty sure we all feel that way on and off. Your letter idea sounds like it really might help lift some spirits- Good luck!
I like the letter idea. You're in a rut and it sucks. Keep moving forward babe.
Court, you are so great! We all of those moments when we feel lost. I know I do quite frequently. I don't know if you are religious or not, but at those moments I always pray that I may know the direction I should go. I pray for patience with the process too. You are a great person and I am proud to have always been able to call you a friend.
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