{Never Grow Up}

"Your little hands wrapped around my finger and it's so quiet in the world tonight

Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming, so I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light

To you, everything's funny

You got nothing to regret

I'd give all I have, honey

If you could stay like that

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up

Just stay this little

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up

It could stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart

No, no one will desert you

Just try to never grow up, never grow up"

                                         

                                         

This beautiful little girl just turned 18 in February. Except I guess she's not so little anymore. My little sister is all grown up & making grown up decisions and I'm having the hardest time with that. I swear just yesterday she was 7 and performing her sweet dance moves for our neighbors in our back yard or begging me to play house with her. Where does time go? She's the smartest girl I know. She graduated early from high school and had these big plans of going off to college and being something amazing. Then just out of the blue a few weeks ago she decided to move in with this guy she's been dating...{don't worry, she doesn't read this} :) I hate that decision. She's still so little in my eyes. When our parents divorced I tried to help my Mom out and take care of her when my Mom was at work. I was her "other" Mom figure. The 7 year age difference never mattered cause I always wanted a baby sister when I was a little girl.

I haven't talked to her much lately because she knows how I feel about her recent decisions & I guess it's somewhat awkward for both of us. It breaks my heart.....but everybody grows up some time in life. That's life. I grew up and I'm sure it was just as tough for my parents but I feel like if she could stay little just for a while longer then I could protect her from this crazy world and heart breaks and horrible people and mistakes and.....real life. She is amazing and I hope she does amazing things in this world. I hope she decides to go to college and has the opportunity to do something she loves. She would be an amazing cheer coach or dance instructor. I hope she realizes that her big sister will always love her and maybe one day she will look back at all of the advice I've given her and know that I was always looking out for her best interest and only wanted the very best for her. Love you sis. XOXOXO